totally confused...

i need somebody to talk to...
but it seems that no one is available...
today is Nick's birthday...
Happy Birthday baby...
+ Carms and Kim...Happy Birthday girlfriends...
im happy that u r celebrating ryt now...but i am sorry kc i just can't smile...

it seems that everything is falling apart...
i don't know what's happening inside my system...my brain is not stable...
my emotions...my heart...
everything...i do not know if somebody could understand me
because i myself can't understand what's wrong with me...

haah...well...whoever u are...if u happen to pass by this site...please PRAY FOR ME...
for my sanity,
for peace of mind,
for everything that i am going through right now...
thanks...

i believe i will survive...