.it's Christmas time.

hello.
i don't know how to explain how i feel ryt at this moment...
emote.emote.
my emotions dis past few days can be compared to a rollercoaster ride.
happy.teary-eyed.happy.indifferent.generous.greedy.sad.sad.tear-streaked.oh man...
can we add the word 'confused'?

i am happy in a way. sad in some ways. i read a pocketbook that i borrowed from my cousin, it didn't help though, it worsened the feeling...
sorry if i'm talking nonsense ryt now, i don't even know how to put into writing the emotions that is currently building-up inside me..

am i inlove in the idea of being in love? it makes me sick, though im not interested to anyone in particular...reconciliation...i need it...i thought it was over but i remember him once in a while...i wana get him out of my system COMPLETELY...a friendly feeling when i remember him, that'd be ok but if we're talking about something else, oh please! stop badgering me!

it's Christmas time. i wana give genuine love and forgiveness.
it's not for sale. i hope i could do it.

let us pray for our brothers and sisters who don't even know that it's Christmas time.
Godbless us all!